Control FREAK.

Yup, that's me. You name it, I have a specific (right) way that I want it done. Usually a time frame too. I know I have always been a bit like this, but having kids, even getting a dog, really flipped this switch for me. Why do I so desperately try to control every moment in time? I think I feel like there are so many things out there that I cannot control, that I'd better take advantage of the ones I can. Who knows!
I have been trying to take it easy tonight, but I was already signed up to host our book club, which I LOOOVE. So John, my wonderful husband, came home from work early to make sure the house was picked up and vacuumed and totally took care of Will and fed him dinner while I layed on the couch. Then when book clubbers came over, he took care of Will and put him to bed. I actually had the thought, while in the midst of discussion, I hope John puts the right pajamas on Will. The ones that are out have oatmeal on the leg from yesterday...
And do you know what would happen to that sweet baby if he went to bed in oatmeal jammies???? Oh it would be the worst!! He could pick at the oatmeal, possibly have a leaky diaper and the oatmeal could reliquify and meld onto the sheets, or WORST CASE SCENARIO, child protective services could make a surprise visit, see my dirty child and take him away forever....No. Not at all. He would sleep great and cry in the morning when I tried to take off said dirty pjs with the "mane" on them (airplane).
I should be so grateful to have such a FANtastic man who would do all these things without even protesting, or even interrupting book club once to ask a question. He's great. And yet, if something is done even remotely different from what I consider to be "right", I just can't handle it. I resolve all the time, not just on 1-1-11 to be less bossy and less controlling and it.is.hard. But I will continue to try. Say it with me, "just roll with it..." yeah. We'll see! But here's to trying to be a better person, it's never too late :)